So I went for my interview, and unfortunately I thought it went really really badly. I thought I had no chance. As far as I was concerned everyone elses work was much better then mine and I thought I came across as really fake. BUT.....I heard from the on monday. and well. They gave me an offer!!!!! I have to get 240 ucas points which is gonna be really very easy. So in september ill be heading off to start my degree in photography!!!! Its all very exciting!!!

So Ive got an interview for Nottingham Trent University for Photography/Photography in Europe. 22nd March at 1.30pm (any prayers would be nice lol!), I really want to get this, it would be amazing. I cant believe they want to interview me, its shocking. But I need to prepare a portfolio, a workbook if I want and also a 500 word summary on why I want to be a proffesional photographer. Alot to do really.

But I need some help picking some photos to use. I need 15-20 images. If you could pick some of the ones from my gallery you like that would be immense so I can start to think what other people like, not just what I like!

So I was awoken this early morning by friend tooma, it was 7.10 he said to me "I know its early but put on BBC1" I asked why. I didnt wanna get up for something crap. "You have to see whats happening in Hemel" So I scrambled around in the darkness for a remote. My hometown which I only moved away from last year was in flames. THe oil depot in the outskirts had had a huge explosion and was now giving out lots of thick black smoke. I could only sit and watch the TV and thats pretty much all ive been doing for hours on end. There are pictures on [link]. Its a very scary sight and so very surreal.

What do I do..........come on, I give up. UCAS forms due in 4 weeks...less than and it would appear Ive lost all passion for everything. Media nah im never gonna achieve anything there. Japanese I dont think I'll cope and do not know if I really want to. Theatre im not good enough. Theatre design not that either. Film, im even losing my passion for this. Model making, im ok at it but never that good and will never be THAT good. Photography id love to do. But most of the courses require an art foundation year and I dont wanna do that I would cope. Oh im so lost. Then the next question comes with WHICH UNI?!?!?!?! oh god. If you had asked me about 3 months ago what I wanted to do I would have told you exactly what I wanted to do but now......now Im totally totally lost......